February 2012
sigh I really need to get a bathroom scale, one that works, because sometimes it tells you exactly what you weigh, and other times it tells you your weight, but then you have to add about three-five pounds to it.
today, for example, I either weigh 125 or somewhere between 125 and 130. I’m really pulling for 125 because that’s the smallest I’ve been in many years and 120 was...
In the Moonlight (Do Me) - Dylan, from Modern...
Fight Like a GRRRL!: LOST: SELF-RESPECT (REBLOG... →
disgustinghuman:
gublerwood:
I don’t know, you guys. I’m really at a loss here. I can’t find my self-respect. It seems I have misplaced it. Here’s a photo of me with my self-respect fully intact:
See? Look at how happy I look? I’m fully clothed and you can just see the…
two things
my posts for my women in lit class are seriously long enough to be papers in their own rights. the one I’m about to submit, if I double spaced it as required for a paper, would be four pages (and I’m not quite done yet ahhhhh)
I can’t get out of my own mind and I don’t know how to make it stop
things I am really fucking sick of: hideous dreams
damn it. just…damn it.
MARGINALIZED & ALIENATING: Ways Gender-Privileged... →
meeca:
(This list will be forever in-progress. Please add on as you see fit).
Challenge sexist jokes, such as dumb blonde jokes or jokes about rape.
Avoid using words such as “bitch”, “ho”, “slut.”
Recognize when you “zone out” when women are speaking, when you value a man’s opinion…
I desperately wish that german had fit better into my schedule because french and I simply do not jive at all
it is the opposite of german in just about every way so I can’t go on instinct
what I should do is celebrate this as a challenge, like teaching myself to write with my nondominant hand (still working on that one)
but instead I am mourning the loss of german and the difficulty...
and there’s the snow.
man I am going to glory in the heat and light of summer when it comes.
long night behind me, longer day ahead.
too much to do and not enough time waugh
ugh benedict cumberbatch was just so nasty in atonement that I can’t see anything but that when I see him and so I cannot at all get behind the rabid sexual attraction that some people seem to experience urgh (not fair yeah I know but he was So Skeevy in atonement!)
I just ate a bowl full of whipped cream omg it was so good but now I feel so ultra queasy aghhh
sometimes when I write about things that have actually happened like they are fictional things, it makes me feel like two different people
that is a spooky feeling
will a glass of wine cure my headache?
I guess we will see!
survivor-problems:
Empathizing with other survivors and knowing in your heart that its not their faults but still feeling guilty or to blame in your own experience.
on a very different note, my father likes ru paul’s drag race on facebook.
my dad is pretty cool.
how many cups of coffee is it supposed to take to make me function?
my relationship with coffee looks similar to the business cycle; at the peak, I am coffee-free! none at all! I refuse to be dependent! I drink green tea and water!
at the trough, I am making two pots a day, all for myself, cup never more than half empty. god I need some coffee. etcetc.
or I guess you could switch the...
slept just shy of twelve hours and I feel like I will never be rested enough ever
January 2012
ugh wow my youngest sister is so astoundingly inconsiderate
ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh
jon’s macbook air is way more fun to use than my silly old hp
have started following a couple of blogs run by survivors, who talk about survivor type issues and things
it’s…idk. it’s important to me but also I’m kind of nervous. I spent so much time telling myself and everyone that nothing happened, or saying that something else happened that wasn’t nearly as bad, etc etc etc and Not Dealing
I spent so much time doing all that...
gosh cillian murphy is so arresting
his looks and his voice and the way he speaks
wow!
gah I’m going to see jon tomorrow for the weekend and I’m really looking forward to it
this has been, frankly, a hard week
I’m really looking forward to some niceness
Teen Dating Violence [TW: dating violence,... →
slutrockerbitch:
Violence isn’t just relegated to domestic married couples—unfortunately, it’s just as prevalent among teenagers. Teen dating violence is just as real and serious as domestic violence. According to the Alabama Coalition of Domestic Violence, one in three teenagers have experienced violence in their relationships. Teens may be especially vulnerable to violence because of their...
Article | How to Talk to Little Girls by Lisa... →
ichaseelephants:
I always bite my tongue when I meet little girls, restraining myself from my first impulse, which is to tell them how darn cute/ pretty/ beautiful/ well-dressed/ well-manicured/ well-coiffed they are.
What’s wrong with that? It’s our culture’s standard talking-to-little-girls icebreaker, isn’t it? And why not give them a sincere compliment to boost their self-esteem?...
panic attack in the parking lot at school awesome great
this ought to be a read more but I can’t do that on my phone
I am so stressed about money ugh
I’m paying for school out of pocket, which, yeah it’s mcc so it’s really only about 3500 per year, and I did have a lot of help with financial aid for one semester, and a little bit for the others, but with most of my books coming from the bookstore, I’ve probably spent like 1500 on books alone between this semester and last
and I’m...
just wrote a book for my women in lit discussion
I have lots to say about this stuff!
if you look down on domestic help or maid services or things like that, then you obviously have no idea how hard their jobs can actually be
wow it seems like everyone in all of my online classes (three so far, one doesn’t start til feb 13) is married
and it’s not like back to school adults with college-aged kids (though there are those as well)
like 21-23 year olds! all married! in my class!
